Day 2

Day 2: Your Crush 


I really don't have a lot to write about this subject to be honest. A lot of people my age are getting married or engaged or knocked up. When exciting news spreads about my loved ones I could not be happier for them. When I see yet another post from my peers about their marital status, however, I have to admit, I do feel a bit like "I'm doing something wrong" ... but then I remember ... I am twenty one years old. I am FAR from ready to be married. I'm still in college, I still have life to live, things to see, people to meet, experiences to be had. Marriage is so far off my raider.  It will happen when it is ready to happen. When it is meat to happen. This is the time of my life to have fun, to enjoy life, to do things I'm never gonna be able to do again. To be free & careless (within reason). Of course there are people that perk my interest, but I know God has a plan for me. Right now it's my job to focus on school, and grades, and me. 

Recently there was a song I came across. It really hit me. Not only does this Tori Kelly have some amazing pipes, but the lyrics are SO true! There are definitely times in life when I wish I had a man by my side. But I also know myself well enough to know, I am NOT ready for someone either. At this point in my life I would be a horrible girlfriend. I am too consumed in my own self right now, figuring out who I am, what to do it in life. I don't have the capacity for another person. 

Right now I choose to focus on being the best version of myself and when I'm ready ... it will happen. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=njmCUJ94lUM