New Year; Same Me

It's crazy how much evil and disfunction surround this world. It's even crazier to me how much it surrounds my own life. I take pride in the fact that I'm a very honest person. From my actions to my words, I don't have the energy or the capacity to fumble with the truth. What  I say is how I see it. Maybe my judgment or perception is off, but when I say I'm an open book, it's true. There is no guessing with me. To have someone call me a liar because they don't want to hear what's coming out of my mouth... really sets me back. I'm really sick of being judged for or talked down to because I do and stand for whats right to me. It amazes me how little respect and consideration is taken into account when making every day choices. Everyone feels like they are above the rules, like nothing applies to them cause "they got this". Yet, when shit hits the fan, they are the victims. My parents don't have all they have because they worked the bare minim and were handed everything. They made choices that bettered theirs & my future. They did what was right, they worked hard, they made sacrifices. They didn't drink or piss their paychecks away. They had respect for authority and sometimes they bit their tongue, took the bullet, did what they didn't want to do because at the end of the day it was the right thing to do.  The only person who can change your life is you. The only person who can make each day a good day, is you. The only way to turn your life around is by being honest with yourself. Life is hard, shit happens, but ultimately you are the only one to blame for it. You have choices in life, not always the most favorable choices, but you have them. You are the driver of your life. Stop blaming others, stop looking for excuses, stop looking for the easy way out, or for the thing that makes you happy and feel good. That's all bullshit. This isn't some cliche quote to inspire you. This is the cold hard truth from where I stand. I am physically sickened with the amount of drama, disfunction, abuse, evil, alcohol, fighting, and petty crap that surrounds people who have the potential to be great and do great things. I have an extremely blessed life because of the morals I have, because of the work ethic I have, because of the morals my parents have, and because of the work ethic my parents have. 2013 was an incredibly blessed year for me, and when it comes to life choices, I am pretty damn proud of most of them. I've done a lot of growing up this last year, a lot of changing. Not because I wasn't okay with the person I was before, no, but because that's life. Life is constantly evolving and as a young adult, you are constantly experiencing new things- learning and living. I am evolving as a person because a new ball was thrown into my court. A lot of people have new year resolutions... I've never played into that game because I think every day is a new start. Every moment is a new moment to make newer and better choices. Every experience is one to live through and learn from. So, no I will not set a resolution for this next year. I will say this though. I am going to focus on not enabling people. Not feeling bad for situations people find themselves in. To stop feeling the pressure of saving people. Not to so easily buy the bullshit that's being fed. Instead see the good that is in people- great or small. Except that not everyone is going to stand up for what is right or even stand up for themselves. People are going to make choices that will contradict what I believe in. People are going to disappoint me. Some will never have the courage enough to change. But at the end of the day, my life is good because of the choices I've made. I won't apologize for my choices or my success. I won't try to hide my life out of fear someone may get offended. My life is good because I choose to make it good, not because I was "dealt a good hand". Life isn't about how successful you are, it's about how you take a bad situation and still come out on top. So in 2014 I'm going to keep moving forward, cause that's just what life is. A path , a trail, an obstacle. I'm going to keep moving forward, not getting held back by other's choices. My choices are my foot steps and my hurtles are those who I allow to stop me. Those who are with me at the end of the path are those who stood tall, and honest, and made choices for themselves rather then sit and sulk in the piles of shit known as life.