Older Kid Phobia

  Earlier today I went to a friends house to pick up some paper work for prom in a week. We went down to her room to chat for a little bit. While we were catching up she was busily organizing. Before I showed up at her house she had just gotten home from a shopping day at Target. What was on the list? College dorm supplies! Silver ware to sheets to hangers to shelving units- all of it was a symbol of a new adventure in her life. As we started expressing how crazy it was to be organizing DORM supplies we looked at the calendar. Two weeks left of high school-- full of activities ; skip day, prom, award nights, final assignments due, last time to this, last time to do that. It was all crazy. 


  As I drove home later I began to think back to Freshman year and even further back to Seventh grade. I remember I use to have this phobia I referred to as "Older Kid Phobia". This self proclaimed phobia was the fear of ANY interactions with older kids. If an older kid talked to me =  anxiety. If I  had to walk past an older kid = completely freaked out. If I had study hall with an older kid= utter shut down! 


  I use to fantasize of the day when I was the older kid and had no worries. I couldn't wait to complain about having to go take my ACT. I couldn't imagine the excitement of getting ready for prom. I dreamed of the day when the class skipped school just because we were seniors. All of it was going to be the best!  


  Senior year is here! I no longer cringe when I see an "older kid" but talking about college plans, writing down due dates, and seeing the 'count down til last day' on every board at school starts to eat away at you. I began day dreaming of when I am graduated and on to college. Those will be the days, right? 

WRONG! 

  What I find myself doing is building up the future to get through the present. And I hate that! Everyone says that now is the time of your life. Once you graduate there is no turning back. These are the carefree, fun-filled days that I'm going to look back on and wish I still had. 


  Every chapter in your life has its high times and low times. What you can't do is let the low time freak you out so much that you fly through the high times, forgetting they even came. Like every other obstacle that has come, I'm going to over come it, I'm going to keep on succeeding, and I'm going to come to yet another obstacle some day. What I have to remember is that exciting, memorable experiences are going to come as well and make every bit of stress worth it! 

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