Cowardly Acts

   Last week in Bible class we started a film about abortion. After a long weekend we came back to class to pick it up where we left off. Except today it wasn't just some passionate man speaking about ways to defend or argue your point, it was showing you. There was a two minute clip of pictures set to music of fetuses that had just been aborted. 

   I have always been of the opinion that abortion is WRONG ; no if, ands, or buts about it. I suppose it comes with the Christian Worldview. Or maybe that fact that I love children and I attach myself to any baby in the room. Either way, it has always been a major 'no,no' in my book. 

   I'm not writing this today to tell you WHY I think its wrong or try to defend or promote the pro-lifers. What I'm here to say is I find it DISGUSTING! If your not ready to hear my thoughts on it, thats completely fine, but now is the time to leave the page. 

    I very rarely attach myself with heated, religious and/or political conversations. Not because I don't care about the issues, but I'm 18. Up until a year ago I didn't have the right to vote, so why shoot off at the mouth about something I really have no say in. Call my old fashion, but I was a kid and my opinion in the matter had little or no importance. I still find myself very quiet in such matters because I'm 18, live with my parents, pay absolutely no taxes or bills, have no adult responsibilities, and never do any kind of research to inform myself. It would be foolish to sit around talking about an issue I have no experience or knowledge about. Yes, I know that as a legal adult now it's my responsibilities to get informed and take a stance, but lets try getting me graduated first, ay? 

   Anyway, back to today. When abortion comes up I usually ask more questions VS. state my opinions, but today after seeing those images it pushed a button in me. To see a being that looked just like an infant, just smaller - less formed - be seperated into several pieces, lifeless, frankly, just ticked me off! 

   Yes, I admit I am a faithful viewer of MTV's hit series '16 & pregnant' & 'Teen Mom'. I in no way approve of these teenagers being sexually active or getting pregnant. But in some small way I have a lot of respect for these girls. Although they made a poor choice in having sex before marriage, good for them to not only go through with the pregnancy but keep the little blessing in raising it

   
   As most of my friends and family know I am a loud, blunt person. I call things the way I see it. I can't stomach lying, fibbing, secrets, conning, or really just to sum it up- anything that tampers with the ENTIRE truth. Not sure why I'm this way, it's just the way God has made me. 

   To call it how I see it - abortion is cowardly. A teenage girl gets knocked up because she had sex with her two month long boyfriend. In her eyes her life is over; her boyfriend will leave her, her parents will be disappointed beyond belief, people around her will look down on her. Too save her own-self from such shame she aborts the baby. COWARD! A twenty something old girl gets raped and pregnant while walking home from work late one night. Not wanting to live with the memory of that horrible night she aborts the baby. COWARD! A college student finds out she is pregnant after she had sex with a no body at a party. Facing single motherhood she realizes she will be working non stop, two or three jobs at a time just to give herself and the child the necessities, instead she terminates the pregnancy- COWARD! 

   Completely strip away the religious stand point of it, completely strip away the scientific stand point of it, completely strip away the political stand point of it and you come to what I felt today. How can you look at the images that I saw and not see a baby? How can you look at what I saw and not cringe at the fact that child will never see a first birthday? How can you look at what I saw and not want to just cradle that child? 

   There are people out there who would do anything to be able to conceive a child and here we are allowing cowards to just abort these helpless infants. I would like to personally smack each and every girl who has had an abortion. To terminate a pregnancy that YOU created is cowardly, disgusting, and selfish. Thats how I see it. But what I also see is God does forgive, but one must admit to their own sin first. 

   I suppose this blog was more of a ranting session for me then something that I learned. But it ticks me off to see our society just accept such an act. What I have learned in some small way today is that I am now an adult, I'll be 19 in a month and its time I step up to the plate. Informing myself on political and religious issues is my job as an adult. Because if I just sit and watch this ruthless act continue I am just as big of a coward as those who are participating in this horrific act. 

my beautiful niece Skye. can't imagine my life without her <3

Older Kid Phobia

  Earlier today I went to a friends house to pick up some paper work for prom in a week. We went down to her room to chat for a little bit. While we were catching up she was busily organizing. Before I showed up at her house she had just gotten home from a shopping day at Target. What was on the list? College dorm supplies! Silver ware to sheets to hangers to shelving units- all of it was a symbol of a new adventure in her life. As we started expressing how crazy it was to be organizing DORM supplies we looked at the calendar. Two weeks left of high school-- full of activities ; skip day, prom, award nights, final assignments due, last time to this, last time to do that. It was all crazy. 


  As I drove home later I began to think back to Freshman year and even further back to Seventh grade. I remember I use to have this phobia I referred to as "Older Kid Phobia". This self proclaimed phobia was the fear of ANY interactions with older kids. If an older kid talked to me =  anxiety. If I  had to walk past an older kid = completely freaked out. If I had study hall with an older kid= utter shut down! 


  I use to fantasize of the day when I was the older kid and had no worries. I couldn't wait to complain about having to go take my ACT. I couldn't imagine the excitement of getting ready for prom. I dreamed of the day when the class skipped school just because we were seniors. All of it was going to be the best!  


  Senior year is here! I no longer cringe when I see an "older kid" but talking about college plans, writing down due dates, and seeing the 'count down til last day' on every board at school starts to eat away at you. I began day dreaming of when I am graduated and on to college. Those will be the days, right? 

WRONG! 

  What I find myself doing is building up the future to get through the present. And I hate that! Everyone says that now is the time of your life. Once you graduate there is no turning back. These are the carefree, fun-filled days that I'm going to look back on and wish I still had. 


  Every chapter in your life has its high times and low times. What you can't do is let the low time freak you out so much that you fly through the high times, forgetting they even came. Like every other obstacle that has come, I'm going to over come it, I'm going to keep on succeeding, and I'm going to come to yet another obstacle some day. What I have to remember is that exciting, memorable experiences are going to come as well and make every bit of stress worth it! 

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